I'm on my flippin' medicine and I'm having little "enemies in the shadows" vibes. Not that I actually think anyone is out to get me. They'd have gotten me by now. It's not hard. I'm all gimpy cause of my legs/feet.
I really hate how this happens though, ya know? I'm a 20 year old boy/guy/man(?) and I should be able to handle things like people being busy, without suspecting everything is coming crashing down. It's ludicrous to be afraid of such non-sense. I'm on top of the world, and have felt thusly all day.
I'm way to paranoid about inter-personal relationships. This may be that social anxiety again. I don't trust people. I try really, really hard to. But when your best childhood friend molests your sister, your first love cheats on you and dated you in the first place just to break your heart, when another friend betrays you in front of all your friends... man... it just gets hard to look over, you know? No excuse for acting like we have another Red Scare on our hands...
So I'm pacifying myself, telling myself it's okay and hoping I'm right. Heh. Nothing like being wrong to make you doubt yourself. (Duh).
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